This morning, after scrubbing the bathroom from top to bottom, mopping and cleaning the windows and de-anting the patio, I have had some time to reflect on the past week and enjoy the generally fantastic mood that I woke up in this fine Sunday. Sat outside in the shade, appreciating the elusive breeze and the cooling affect of the sprinklers, I can’t help but feel like me again. Both Rich and I are so over the moon with our recent change of life-style. I don’t know how much of that is because everything is so new and exciting but right now it feels like we’re living the dream. When we first arrived at Pyramid (post-recovery from jet lag) I was exhausted before dinner time but now I’ve done a week of work I’m finding I have more energy every day and heaps of motivation which I have definitely been lacking over the past few months. Maybe the sunshine has sent me loopy but I feel elated, contented, motivated and every other positive thing that ends in ‘ed’. I feel a sense of purpose now that i’m working again, I feel courageous because I have flown to the other side of the world and got a job doing something I have never done before, I feel a sense of confidence that I took such a big a risk and so far it’s paid off. I also feel lucky to have Rich who reinforces all these feelings in me every step of the way and quashes my doubts about my own abilities or outcomes.
Recently I have been reading an old book that I found called “How to get what you really want”. It was written thirty or so years ago and aimed at women a generation or two older than me but many of it’s themes are surprisingly relevant to me. The idea of the book is to get you to figure out what you really want out of life, your ideal life, and how to go about getting it. Not just career-wise but every aspect of your life. It’s broken down into various exercises of dubious importance but one in particular really got me thinking. the book asked me to design my ideal dream life with no limitations such as money, location, people, personal skills etc. It then asked me to think about what characteristics in myself would emerge if I lived in such an environment. I have always considered myself (and been told growing up) that I am creative, artistic, intelligent, adventurous but nothing about my life over the past year or two has really demonstrated that to me. When I’ve been asked to describe myself I’ve always tended to write the same adjectives but recently I’ve really had trouble proving to myself, let alone anybody else, that they are true insofar as they are much more representative of what I’d like to do or be than what I actually do do or feel in my day to day life. Now, I’ve only been in Australia two and a half weeks and at Pyramid 6 days, but already I can feel all that creativity, passion, and sense of adventure flooding back. I feel like me again. It’s a really nice feeling. The icing on the cake is that I have Rich to share it with and I know he’s as happy about this as I am.