Riding The Wave of Uncertainty

577267_4512155839421_1613500981_nSomething I’ve been working on lately is trying to live in the now; living for today instead of living for tomorrow. With no steady job, no permanent address, no money and no break, I’m living in uncertain times. I have spent the past six months trying everything to create certainty and guarantee my future but now I see that it just can’t be done. I have a very clear idea about what I want out of life, what I want to accomplish and where I want to be when I’m 50 but I have learned that nothing is certain and no matter what I do to try and stop it, anything can happen.  This has left me stressing out about money, where I’m going to live, what I should be doing, where I should be and the fact that I can’t get a decent job is only exacerbating the situation.  It is for these reasons that I have decided to whole heartedly live for today – to ride the wave of uncertainty.

So what does this mean? Well, instead of stressing out about how I’m ever going to afford to work and travel and do everything I want to do, I’m just going to do it. I’ve come to terms with the fact that uncertainty is what life is all about so I might as well enjoy it. Instead of trying to guarantee my future, I’m going to work with what I have now because what else can you do? It is for this reason that I have decided to cut my losses on the farm, take what money I have, re-pack my backpack and go to Asia. Now.

This is where I was surprised. Any of you who know me will know that I always like to have a plan and I like to be prepared and organised. Well, that’s all just had to go out of the window on this one. Forget not having a lot of money, or a permanent address or a stable job…. as of next Monday, I will have no backup money, no address AND no job. I still have goals and dreams but I can’t help feeling that if they’re meant to happen, they will. 😀 It seems pretty ridiculous but strangely, I’m really excited about it.  Ok, so I don’t know where I’ll end up living or working or what I’ll end up earning but I didn’t know that anyway so I might as well live a little!

Can you say adventure to Southeast Asia with my best friend/love of my life? I CAN!

Bring it on…

 

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